I've never prayed for forgiveness because I don't like someone before. But I have been. But I guess I should clarify. I do like her. Sort of.
Maybe I just thought I liked her when I first met her, but now that I know her better...I like her less. Not sure.
This is new for me. Usually, if I don't like someone, I shove off, and avoid them. I never felt bad for not liking them. And I know Jesus doesn't tell us we HAVE to like EVERYONE. I still have to treat her like my sister. But man...it's hard. I want to like her. But every time I try now...nuthin.
I could probably sit her and list off the reasons I am not liking her. And why I don't like other people too. There is really a reason...for most of them anyway. But I'll spare you.
But it got me thinking. I wonder WHY the people that don't like me...don't.
I'm just curious. I'm realistic enough to know that there are people out there, probably that I have contact with often, that don't like me. When they see me, the trigger in their brain goes,
" Oh no..not TINA again. UGH."
I know hard to imagine. I'm kidding.
Seriously, I have a pretty strong personality, and I can see it turning certain people off. So like I said, I just wonder about these things.
Good thing Jesus loves me. And He has the power to change those things about me that need changing. Of course, there are some that won't like me because of the changes. Sigh...can't please everyone I guess.
About Me
- Tina
- Astoria, IL, United States
- I am a wife to a wonderful husband and mother of 3 beautiful and talented children. I am new to small town life. I am just trying to figure things out day by day and learning to love the Lord with all my heart.
2 comments:
LOL, funny thing is, I KNOW why most people don't like me. I am LOUD, opinionated, sometimes totally airheaded, I drink and smoke. Heck, I can recognize it, just sometimes doesn't make sense. But to me, hey, you don't like me, no biggie, I didn't tell you TO like me. I am an acquired taste, this I know! Ok, it sucks when I realize someone doesn't like me, but then at the same time, knowing that I don't like many people, hey its understandable. If it is a good friends wife/husband or girlfriend/boyfriend, I will try to a point..but if it just doesn't seem to happen, screw it. I will be me whether they like ME or not! =P I have had that point with other people too, I try so hard to like them, but just something doesn't click and it won't work no matter how hard I try. Those are the times that I just go with the flow and be civilized and socialable, but thats about as much as I can do. I generally get along with most people, very few I have ISSUES with, but we all have our few.
Don't worry about it Tina, you are so not alone in your thinkings. Just remember to always be yourself and happy/secure with yourself, and F$#@ those that don't like ya! Heck, even Jesus had those that didn't like him, we all deal with it one time or another in life. Just part of growing ourselves and realizing WHO we really are.
No, I'm not worried about other people liking me or why. I was just curious. Like what they say. I used to also just say screw it, but not so much anymore. I guess I am just exploring my character defects..to a point. And since unfortunately there are quite a few people that I don't like, I was pondering the reversal is all.
I am concerned more about this one person in particular, mostly because we have to deal with one another a lot, AND she has no idea the way I am feeling. Not that it matters...well I guess it does, to a point. But anyway..just exploring some thoughts out loud is all.
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