I am pretty open about how screwed up I am. Or was....No am is more like it.
Maybe it's years of therapy, but to talk about the mistakes I've made and the damage it's done, is pretty easy for me. One on one especially, but if we keep it in a tight circle (like my CR group), I am still OK. BUT..

We are going to be opening up our Recovery ministry to the public soon. The pastor is going to be preaching about it for about 4 weeks in preparation.During this 4 week sermon series, the leader of our group is asking each of the women to give their testimony. For those of you unfamiliar with church lingo, this means you stand up in front of the congregation and give your life story. Well the shortened version of course. You usually talk about what your life was...and how after receiving Christ you have changed, and what God has taught you.

At first, I said, "No way." But as someone else always tells me, "Tina I know you, you say No, no, no and then you do it anyway." Well, she's right. I have been thinking about it. Still praying on it but I am leaning towards doing it. But I am a little nervous, and unsure what exactly to share. It's not like, it's open mic and I need to pour out all the gory details.

I heard something yesterday that was actually the turning point in my decision. 2 little words help me see how I could do this. I heard , "the 2 best words in the bible are...But God..." Hmmm. I may just have to steal that shamelessly. So I don't have my thoughts in order yet, but be on the look out. I am probably going to share this with you guys first. Just to see...

Happy Monday and ponder your life a while, in the context of But God...you may be surprised at what you find.