Listening

I am no math genius with equations running through my mind. I'm no CEO with underlings pulling me in different directions. I'm not even an energetic Super Soccer Mom running hither and yon all afternoon. Heck, I'm not even ADD. But I feel like it sometimes when I pray.

The Bible tells us "Be still...and know I am God."(Psalm 46:10). I have the "know I am God" part down. It's the "Be still" part that I struggle with. Talk talk talk talk talk...yes, I do that to God too. I am trying to slow down a bit though. I am trying to stop whining and asking all the time. I often feel like He isn't answering, but I am convinced He is, I am just not LISTENING.

But when I try to quiet the clamor in my head...man..that's tough. I feel my eyes flitting back and forth, even though I squeeze them shut. Little thoughts keep creeping in. "Gotta do this, oh yeah and that, and what are you making for dinner tonight and...hey! Are you hearing anything yet?" UGH. I even try envisioning us (me and Jesus) walking in a quiet meadow along a stream talking. OK it's corny..but there it is again..TALKING. Why, even in my heavenly imaginings can I not SHUT UP?

It's a good thing "Love is patient.."(1 Corinthians 13:4), and "God loves me" (too many to list) and "God knows me" (1 Corinthians 8:3). He is patient and knows I have this over-active dialogue in my head but that I want to hear what He is saying. So He waits.... He has much to tell me. Now if I could just find the off button on this thing....