Tomorrow?

What would you do if you lost your spouse? Are you prepared for that ever happening? Is anyone EVER really prepared?

Folks "our age" don't often think about that kind of stuff. That is unless your spouse is sick.
OK, that's not completely accurate. Let me re-phrase...Unless your spouse doesn't take care of himself. OK that's better.

See my husband is diabetic. Which normally..not that huge of a deal. Lots of people have diabetes and live long, prosperous and fulfilling lives. BUT my husband takes horrible care of himself. His blood sugars run 4-5 times what they should be, and then he pops another starburst.

Last week he saw me crying and praying for the Lord not to take him from me yet. Maybe it made a dent. The good news is we went to the Dr today. We have him back on his medications (that he hasn't taken since Jan of '08) and the Dr was super cool. OK I thought he was because he saw my concern and saw what a "fun" patient Joe is.

The other thing that makes me concerned is, he keeps thinking that he has time to "live for the Lord". He really wants to , but like his health, he keeps putting it off, thinking he's got time. What if he doesn't? None of us know our number of days. I could collapse of an aneurysm right after typing this sentence. I could get a cancer diagnosis. I could fall at the stove cooking supper of a sudden heart attack. Any of us could. So why do we put off what we could do today? Especially if today is our last? Looking eternity square in the face.

A lot of people think I am off my rocker because of my faith. Some even harass me, and verbally abuse my beliefs. But that's OK. Because #1 I happen to believe what the Bible says. and #2 even if I am wrong, I took a chance, lived my life trying to love, forgiving, and helping others. I don't do it perfectly, and actually totally botch it sometimes. BUT If I am right...well then there is a Heaven, a loving forgiving and understanding Father, and I am going to be welcomed. Even with all my mistakes, weaknesses, and character flaws. I long for the day to hear, "Welcome home. Well done my good and faithful servant. Let me wipe your tears. Come...see all who have been waiting for you."

So now modern medicine can help my husband function better. I will keep praying for him and the others I truly love to REALLY start living today. Before I lose them...forever.